Oh, these hotsy totsy summer days.
I feel like toast tonight. But, thankful at least for my fan in the window.
//It was two years ago. I don't remember if it was hot, I don't think it was hot like this. I just remember it was the 4th of July. And it was a Sunday. There was uncertainty stirring.
There were fireworks. We watched them from the parking lot rooftop. We tried to enjoy them, but I think we both had something else on our minds. We talked over coffee or some sort of drink at Starbucks. We just didn't think "we" were going to work out.
We conversed some more on the bench outside, nearby. It was very, very late when he walked me home. And then, it was goodbye.
//My heart still aches sometimes for you. I wonder how we kept from kissing, with our deep attraction to each other. I think of you less and less. But, tonight you've been on my mind, as I recall this night 2 years ago, when we went our separate ways. I have struggled so. Oh God only knows.
//Are you alright? How are you & Abba getting along these days? You know, He really loves you M. Are you married yet? I wonder about you sometimes. Hope you're well. Do you ever think about me? I wonder that too. I'm OK. I am on this life-journey... and it's hard. Sometimes it's shit. Other times it's bliss. But really, I'm trying to ascertain who I am and where I'm headed next. For now, I am trying to be content with right where I'm at.
"My help comes from the Lord, maker of heaven and earth." Psalm 121 Trying to focus in on His faithfulness... The Lord is my helper. Even in the midst of fear or uncertainty. He is present.
