Another year older,
Another year gone by,
Another year is past,
As I think back it seems to have gone fast.
Another year older,
Another year gone by,
Another 365 days to remember,
From November to November.
Another year older,
Another year gone by,
Another family Thanksgiving dinner,
Thankful for Jesus loving me, a sinner.
Another year older,
Another year gone by,
Another bundle of memories to hold in my mind,
And I hope I'll remember them, even when I'm old and blind.
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I know things change. Sometimes it seems like everything,
and every one, around me is changing. Things stay the same
sometimes. Sometimes I feel like I'm the same, still. And others
are only changing around me. Am I grown up yet? Am I an
adult? My life seems so similar to how it has been for years.
Living at home on Nona, going to college, working locally part-time,
helping at church here & there, etc. So much seems the same.
Seems mundane sometimes. Like, is this where I'll always be?
I see my siblings who are married, having babies, moving away...
God has changed me though. [I'm thankful for that.]
I know He is changing me still. God is working wondrous things in my heart.
He is preparing me for what lies ahead. I don't know what is 1 month, 7 months,
or 3 years in front of me... & I cannot pretend to know either. I want to truly
be excited as I look forward to life ahead, in 2012 and beyond. Truth be told,
I'm scared, sometimes. I worry. I'm unsure and doubt...
God is SO much bigger than my fears. [I'm thankful for that.]
The life God has planned for me is unfolding already, day by day. I don't
have to wait for life to start at a certain point, or when 'such and such' happens.
I am L I V I N G today! I am on a journey. God, it's hard though. I feel like I am 'behind'
sometimes or like I'm trying to catch up or stay abreast with others. But You
don't call me to that. You call me to Yourself, to follow You, to love You, &
to love others. God, I fail. I fall. I'm a mess at times. I SO easily forget You,
Your promises, Your love. Thank you, Lord, for your F A I T H F U L N E S S to me!
[Help me, Lord, help me.]
Happy Thanksgiving, 2011.
Sipping peppermint tea, Cil
