sometimes just sitting.
being with someone special to you.
is better then talking to them.
two people sitting in the sunshine.
on the grass.
having a picnic lunch.
taking a break.
from the day at school.
maybe saying a few words.
asking how the day is going.
or telling a funny story.
[but mostly just BEING together.]
i love these times with my sister tali!
it hit me the other day.
pretty hard.
that in three months.
she'll be off and married.
a wife, living with her husband.
still my little sister.
but no longer little.
and no longer living in the same house as me.
no more carpooling to college or sharing lunches together.
i will miss all these things.
the good times.
and even the times we've fought.
as we know, life isn't always 'flowers and hotdogs'.
i love all the times we've had growing up together these past 18 years.
no one can take those memories away.
and i wouldn't trade them for anything.
but that doesn't make these big changes any easier.
i will miss her being around the house.
and fighting over the car with her.
or laughing about some things no one else would understand.
God has blessed me in so many ways.
and I have grown immensely through my relationship with my sista talitha.
now to focus on the positives.
i look forward to seeing their new home.
and going over for meals.
and seeing her and her husband together as a married couple.
and to see where God leads them in the path of life.
near or far, but always serving Him.
and i look forward to the advice she'll have to offer me.
when my turn comes (Lordwilling) to be married.
since she'll have marriage experience already.
which is weird to think of, but it's true.
i am jealous sometimes.
and i cry too.
but i know this is all in His hands.
and it's in His perfect timing.
i love how God's plan unfolds, even when i don't understand it.
in each of our lives.
so different for each one of us.
i will always love my tali girl.
(here i am starting to cry now.)
and i am truly happy and excited for you and joshy in this.
i wasn't at first.
and that still creeps in sometimes.
but God has done so much work in my heart.
and i am only able to say this happened by His power.
thank you so much for being who you are.
i feel honored to be one of your bridesmaids.
i look forward to the special day.
in the meantime though.
lets keep focusing on the present.
keep enjoying our rides to and from hfcc.
and our lunches together in the sunshine, or the rain.
life is so much better with you in it. :)
mucho love to you foreva and eva, big sista cil xo
