Some things I miss

There are some things I miss.
Things dear to my heart.
I miss walking into the TLC nursery every morning at 6, feeling tired but thankful to be there, smothering the babies with pure love.
There was always an abundance of babies to hold, play with, and love.
I miss babies being lined up for baths and feedings, and just to be held...it's boring back home where the babies are not the ones lined up, but we are...waiting to hold them.
I miss crazy feeding times with 10 babies lined up having bottles or waiting for their lunches.
I miss going for walks on the track around the field with 3 or 4 babies in one pushchair (stroller) and one in a front pack.
I miss having dirty feet from the red dirt.
I miss the afternoon thunder and rain storms.
I miss all the hugs and kisses.
I miss the hilarious comments from the creepy crawlies (toddlers).
I miss the funny stories and memories we made.
I miss the Tuesday night meetings ending with some homemade chocolate chip cookies from Lynn's kitchen. :)
I miss hanging out in the cottages at night with all the volunteers.
I miss the scrapbooking nights, movie nights, and girl nights.
I miss going out for dinner in the red minibus late at night
just to get off the TLC property.
I miss having a window with no screen and just leaving it opened all the time.
I miss being with the volunteers all the time.
I miss being with the babies every day.
I miss the rice and mystery meat.
I even miss the annoying dogs.
I miss going down to the preschool.
I miss bath times with all the aqueous cream and emulsifying ointment.
I miss Tea with Thea on Thursday nights.
I miss the main house kids.
I miss the cooks and ladies who cleaned house.
I miss night shift, being up all night feeding babies and cleaning.
I miss doing 12 loads of laundry every day.
I miss washing bottles and boiling dummies and teats on the stove.
I miss dishing up a dozen bowls of breakfast cereal for a dozen hungry toddlers.
I miss changing 20 beds in 1 hour with a baby on my front!
I miss being at TLC.

He is my strength and my song...

My life has been feeling so hectic lately and I've been
up till the wee hours of the morning finishing school
assignments...I'm so tired and ready for a break.
This semester will be done in just eight days!

Even through all the busyness of life and wading
through all the final school projects and
exams, the Lord is my strength...
I need to be trusting Him right now and always.

Lord, thank you for the sunsets, the rainbows, and the birds who sing each morning...
all the big and little wonders you use to reveal Yourself to me each day
and show Your great power in all the earth.
You are amazing GOD!

The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation. He is my God, and I will praise him, my father's God, and I will exalt him.
Exodus 15:2 NIV

Tonight as I was working on homework and growing tired and overwhelmed and needing some encouragement...I found this Bible verse about the Lord's strength...

The Lord is my strength and song, He has become my salvation...

And I am filled with His joy, peace, and love.
Isn't it so great how God's word stands as a constant reminder for us?
...To encourage and guide us in this world.

Freedom from anger, and reveling in the joy of the Lord

Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. Here there is no Greek or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all.

Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

[Colossians 3]

God has been working on my heart and in my life,
ridding me of anger, wrath, and unkind speech.
All those things are being stripped away,
and I am being filled with freedom,
joy, love like the Father's, gentle peace in my heart,
longing for God to fulfill allll my needs.
I can revel in the fact that I am saved by grace.
I have freedom through Jesus's death on the cross.
And this is what gets me excited!

What do you get excited about?

Earth has no sorrow that heaven cannot heal...

Come, ye disconsolate, where'er ye languish Come to the mercy seat, fervently kneel Here bring your wounded hearts, here tell your anguish Earth has no sorrow that heaven cannot heal.

Joy of the desolate, light of the straying Hope of the penitent, fadeless and pure! Here speaks the Comforter, tenderly saying, "Earth has no sorrow that heaven cannot cure."

Here see the bread of life, see waters flowing Forth from the throne of God, pure from above Come to the feast of love; come, ever knowing Earth has no sorrow but heaven can remove.
Come, ye disconsolate, where'er ye languish.

Beams of Heaven. Come Ye Disconsolate. Thomas More.



The words of this song are so simple, yet so profound.
I heard it for the first time recently, in fact my little sister played it for me.
She put the cd on one day and said that this is her favorite song on this album
and that I should take a listen to this song too.
I guess the words just speak to my heart, in that they remind me of the
great, profound, and beautiful truth
that heaven, ultimately Jesus, will heal all earth's sorrows.
As the song goes, "Earth has no sorrow that heaven cannot heal".
To me, that is a great comfort.
I feel as though it makes me want to cry and laugh at once.
"Come to the feast of love; come, ever knowing..."

I pray that I will be ever mindful of this truly beautiful truth,
and be able to share in it with others,
who need to know, so badly,
that there is a way out of the life they're living now.
There is hope. There is forgiveness and a second chance.
God is there for them.
And He wants to heal their earthly sorrows and bring them home to Him forever.
Amen.

I love you Lord.

Pieces of my life.

1. 

Wonderful Savior, my heart belongs to thee.
I will remember always the blood He shed for me.
Wonderful savior, my heart will know your way,
so let me embrace you always, as I walk this earth.
Be blessed, be loved, be lifted high.
Be treasured here, be glorified.
I owe my life to you my Lord, here I am.

Beautiful Jesus, how may I bless Your heart?
Knees to the earth, I bow down to everything You are.
Beautiful Jesus, you are my only way,
so I will embrace you always as I walk this earth.
Be blessed, be loved, be lifted high.
Be treasured here, be glorified.
I owe my life to you my Lord, here I am.

Beautiful Jesus, how may I bless Your heart?
Knees to the earth I bow down to everything You are.
Beautiful Jesus, You are my only way.
So I will embrace you always as I walk this earth.
Be blessed, be loved, be lifted high.
Be treasured here, be glorified.

I owe my life to you my Lord, here I am, here I am.
Be blessed, be loved, be lifted high.
Be treasured here, be glorified.
I owe my life to You my Lord, here I am.
Here I am, here I am.
Knees to the earth, here I am.
Here I am.
Here I am.

Passion. Sacred Revolution. Knees To The Earth.


God, please use me for your work.
Use me, a weak vessel, to further
Your kingdom across the globe.
Whatever that may be, whatever that would entail for my life, I desire your will.
I desire to follow you. Lord, help me to follow You wholeheartedly.
Lord, may I not be lukewarm and be spit out of your mouth,
but be hot and on fire for You.
In all I do, let it glorify You.
Please restore my life.
All these pieces of my broken life.
Only you can repair the pieces,
only You can put me together again.
Make me new again.
Take my life.
Make me all for You.


Why do I put myself in jeopardy
and take my life in my hands?
Job 13:14


We live by faith, not by sight.
2 Corinthians 5:7

We know that anyone born of God does not continue to sin;
the one who was born of God keeps him safe, and the evil one cannot harm him.
We know that we are children of God,
and that the whole world is under the control of the evil one.
We know also that the Son of God has come and has given us understanding,
so that we may know him who is true.
And we are in him who is true-even in His Son Jesus Christ.
He is the true God and eternal life.
1 John 5:18-20NIV

Reflections.

Sometimes my heart feels so heavy and my mind swims with thoughts. of the past and the future. I ask questions and wonder. And I wonder what is right for me in this life? Am I really living for God in all things? Or have I been conformed to this world? I long to be close to God. I feel so faraway right now. When will the sun rise again? I feel so lost without it. I speak, but my actions don't always demonstrate my true intentions. My heart cries out...Lord, I need you. For with you I cannot go on. And I am reminded again that HE is here with me now, waiting for me. And then I know I am in the palm of His hand.

"By this we shall know that we are of the truth and reassure our heart before him; for whenever our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and he knows everything." 1 John 3:19,20

"I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace." Ephesians 4:1-3

Walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called...Am I doing that? Oftentimes I struggle with knowing what is even God's calling on my life. I mean I wonder if what I have perceived, thus far, as God's will for my life is really what He has for me. What He wants me to do. Cause sometimes I really don't know. And i grow discouraged.

"Lord, you have been our dwelling place in all generations. Before the mountains were brought forth, or ever you had formed the earth and the world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God." Psalm 90:1,2

"For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also." Luke 12:34